#saywhat

My #saywhat 'moment' takes some explaining.
You see, I have this friend...she's kind of great.
But then I went to a pretty dark place after the birth of my second child.
It DRASTICALLY affected our relationship.
Megan found someone else to cling to during that time.
I felt replaced.
I felt jealous.
I felt a lot.
Then things got better.
We slowly got back to being friends.
Then we (even more slowly) got back to where we left off.
And now, we are better than ever. She is my sister and my soul mate.
But, for a long time, I still felt a ton of bitterness when it came to my "replacement". I felt a stab of jealousy at the mention of Laura's name. I couldn't make eye contact, I panicked if we were in a room together. It was ugly.
Megan got pregnant with HER second child around the time we found our way back to each other.
As I was praying that I could find a way to ease my own suffering at the mere mention of Laura's name, I felt God pushing me toward something that I thought was RIDICULOUS. He pushed me to approach Laura with the Baby Shower idea. My first thoughts ran along the lines of, "are you KIDDING me?", "I don't even like this girl!", "SHE STOLE MY FRIEND!!!!!". But, I felt that tug that you just can't ignore and I went with it.
I can say with certainty, that it was the BEST idea He could have given me. The time spent planning and organizing the shower was time spent getting to know a new friend. Laura was not the callus, petty girl that I had envisioned. Turned out, she was a lot like me!
I now have another sister...another soul mate.
I am certain that this wouldn't be the case without that shower.
Laura is about as sensitive and emotional as I am...it's nice to have someone who can relate with my kind of crazy! Laura is GREAT at giving advice and encouragement, although she's not always awesome at taking said advice...which sounds awfully familiar. She never gets tired of giving me the reassurance that I so often need...telling me that I'm not only "good enough", but I am exactly what she needs and not to change a thing!
Moral of the story: When God gives you an idea...go with it! No matter how much you want to roll your eyes and tell Him He's lost it...The Guy really does know what He's doing! And I thank Him daily for giving me Laura. She was my gift and I earned her by simply listening...and following His lead!

Deuteronomy 28, “If we will keep God first place, if we will walk in His ways, all these blessings will overtake us.”