The Wrong Piece in the Puzzle

Big things are happening. Some good, some not so good. Even the good transitions have thrown me for a loop. I feel like I can't find my place in this world....like there's a niche for me somewhere and I just can't walk fast enough or listen long enough or pray hard enough to figure out where it is. I'm trying so hard to still feel like a part of something that is bigger than me, but that feeling of not belonging just keeps nagging at me. No matter how amazing my friends and family are, I still manage to hear that voice in the back of my head, telling me that someone else could do it better, someone else would be more confident, "they" don't need you. For the first time in my life I am trying to silence that voice. Every time I have felt it creeping in for the last few days, I have shut it down. Stopped it and instead been intentional in my thoughts. I tell myself instead that I am strong in Christ. That He created me to be here in THIS moment in time to serve HIS purpose. That no one else on earth could accomplish what He put me here to do.

I only believe myself about half of the time. It's a pretty tough internal struggle. But, it's a process. Maybe I'll believe myself more and more every day until that voice has no power over me. That is my hope anyway.